Hyperhidrosis
I used to have this cousin I was very close with. We'd text almost everyday. I'm not sure when it happened but one day it all fizzled out and that was that. I haven't talked to her since. The last time I saw her was... I'm not even sure at this point. It's been so long that it might as well have never happened. It's like one of those proverbs of the tree falling in the forest. Nobody there to hear it. Did it really fall? or was it always like that? People who lived longer than me probably feel this more than I do. They might have all sorts of past events that feel like nothing more than a dream. Life is quite short in the grand scheme of things. My first 12 years of living are more memorable than the past 7. It might be becuase I'm just existing day to day not seeing or trying anything new so there's nothing to grasp onto and the days bleed together. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday. I wake up, apply to jobs, pretend to work on my project and before I know it, it's time for bed. Do that a couple hundered times and before you know it 2 years have passed with nothing to show for it. No job, no new skills, nothing. Just the same old person with nothing better. It's actually going to just keep getting worse from here on. The more time passes the more people I lose. Even if they're alive they just don't associate with me anymore. Silly. Despite it all i'm still the same little boy who just wanted to film videos and draw only I no longer have the drive to do anything of the sort. I traded in my hobbies for academic success and now that i've finished school I have nothing really to show for it yet. Maybe one day i'll get a job. One day soon I hope.
4/16/25 10:31pm
Hyperhidrosis
I remember when my roblox wife cheated on me.
>you're just not cool enough, he has more Robux than you, your hair is ugly
and you know what? she was right, I couldn't argue with such sound logic. And so at the age of 11 I had my first divorce.
4/13/25 9:00pm
Hyperhidrosis
you guys just had to be there for early roblox dating. Modern roblox dating sucks because it's essentially the same thing as VR chat.
With early roblox dating you had to chat back and forth roleplaying as husband and wife before it was time to get off the computer. You either
A.) play again next time (super rare)
B.) never see that person again (common)
I like to think that everyone I online dated on roblox were kids (girl) my age and not 50 year old pedophile men.
4/13/25 8:57pm
Hyperhidrosis
Job market isn't looking too good. There are no jobs nearby within my field. I've been applying to jobs for almost a yaer now and have nothing. My only other hope would be to start an online buisness of sorts but then I have no idea where to start in that area. I'll have to commit time to researching as much as I can and see what trends happen where that I can capitalize on.
4/3/25 10:53pm
Hyperhidrosis
I'm very demoralized today, I woke up late, can't taste anything, can't hear out of one ear, it feels like im trapped inside my head. 10 hours slipped past before I realized it was already evening. The people I want to spend time with are not available to me and with each picture I see of them, they're getting older as well as progressing without me. This life isn't as good as some people say it is. Obviously it's better than a vast majority of people in terms of physical needs but everything else? lacking. Social aspects? Nonexistent. Skills and Hobbies? Not enough time to cultivate the things I enjoyed doing because I have to search for a job. I'm not even good at the things I do study. Even with so much time and effort, passing advanced math classes I still lack the ability to do mental math. Some people are just born better than others and there's nothing we can do about it. Take for example one being born with broad shoulders, narrow waist, and a tall ovrerall statuer. Now compare that with me who has none of those things without any ability to change them. This also exists in a mental capacity. Some will just naturally be smarter and have a higher ceiling/more potential to be smarter while others peak early on in life and stagnante with no ability to progress further. To "be the best version of yourself" is the bare minumum retard advice. It's just cope because that's all you can do.
3/31/25 7:11pm
Hyperhidrosis
I don't like how politics has permiated into every facet of the internet. From online social media, to memes, to games, media, academia. Nothing can exist without someone bringing up something political. It's how the online community I was apart of fragmented and lead to people leaving. 2016 american internet especially. The worst moment when everthing just blended together. Even KIDS were talking politics.
3/27/25 12:31am
Hyperhidrosis
An old online community I was apart of is reviving. I'm not sure how to feel about it though. It's been almost 4? 5? years since it shut down and I'm a completely different person now than I was then. I'm not even sure how many of the original community members will be there. It's one of those "you can go back but nobody is waiting" type of situations.
3/27/25 12:24am
Hyperhidrosis
Sigh, another month wasted. Is there no end to this mundane existence? Job market still bad, no meaningful jobs within 50 miles. Truly it is really over. Haven't had a "We're back!" moment in a while can't reacall the last time I've actually said we're so back. Whatever chat. Let's just see what happens next.
3/27/25 12:19am
Hyperhidrosis
Head hurt, woking on homeowkr rn homrowr don feel like finishing..
3/22/25 12:11am
Hyperhidrosis
> be me
> wake up
> go into kitchen
> weirdsmell.tiff
> look for a gas leak
> open window, smell still there
> open fridge
> smell intensifies
> mfw it's a demon
3/21/25 11:21pm
Hyperhidrosis
I really like milk. Tastes so good, especially whole milk the yummy ones (if you know) basically milkshake. You could add chocolate milk if you want but regular milk tastes just as good. Skeletons love it.
3/21/25 11:18pm
Hyperhidrosis
Yuhh where the huzz aisle at?
3/11/25 11:14pm
Hyperhidrosis
Things change chat. There is no going back. If you've failed to make firends already and then finished school there's no hope becase at the end of the day nobody is waiting for you. Everyone you knew, the places you were at, no longer exist. You can't capture that feelig ever again because it's unique and only exists in your memories because it's over.
3/11/25 11:09pm
